radio's all spoke in secret code

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 16:20:15 GMT

I haven't been on this thing in forever. I have alot of things to say but dont have the time right now. ... so much has happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

money is fucking evil.....IT'S THE DEVIL

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 17:18:27 GMT

I found a cute little free standing house. Im waiting for he guy to call me about the price of rent! I hope it's in my range. I LOVE the house!!! Agh....money will be the death of me I know. I called the bank to see if they still had my debit card. They had to cut it up because they had it there too long. Now I have to pay for another one. Also, my landlord waited a week to deposit my rent check....so I ended up using some of the money that was for the rent. Now the check I wrote her is gonna go back to her. Im screwed!! I dont know what her policy is for returned checks. It wasn't my fault, really....she should have used it right when she got it like she normally does. I dont know what to do. Things have been soo hard for me and my little family. We are just getting by. Once all the bullshit, that is costing us tons of money, is out of the way...we should be fine!!!

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 14:32:24 GMT

I miss my little boy! I cant wait till friday....riley will be home! I've been a tad bit depressed lately. I wish I had more time for my friends. I cant believe they even still talk to me. I miss asheville. It was so much fun. I want to go back!! Chase and I are already thinking of tattoos again. We just got tattooed and we want more...haha...like I say we got the bug and were hooked! This was my first tattoo and the 4th for Chase. Im thinking of getting a chest piece. Anyways...work is sucking as always. Im about to look on-line for a part time job. I need more money! Hell I might just find a job for full time. I can leave this boring ass job. I get good hours and I some what good money, I just cant stand my boss. Im the only one at my job that works and gets shit done. He always has to shit on me and tell me what STILL needs to be done. When he's around everyone else, he just blinks an eye. I cant stand him. I M O V E R I T ! ! ! ! Going to look at a house for rent today!

2009!!

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 15:29:40 GMT

wow....I haven't updated this thing in along time. Well lets see...I moved in with my boyfriend. We have been living together for 9 months now. We are doing great. Im trying to find a house for rent or another apartment. The place were we live is not the best. We live on the LOUD side. So they wake Riley up all the time. No one has a car on our side, hahaha, so they knock on our door at all hours....for a ride. I cant take it anymore. As soon as I find a better place, we are out!! My mom is off to conway with my little boy. :(
They are stay with my sister for the week. Spring break for my mom and sister. Damn..im stuck here! At least Riley gets to have some fun. He has never been to the beach or traveled. I'll miss him soooo much. I gots a tattoo last month. I want to get more!! Im hooked...I got the bug. Heh!

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 02:24:55 GMT

I went with Brad over to his friend Megans' house. Her and her husband were having a birthday party for their daughter. We took Riley with us. It was alot of fun. They had a slip and slide! Brad kept sliding Riley everywhere. LOL..Riley had a blast for sure. Everyone wanted me to go in the slip and slide but, hell no! haha..It was a good day today. Im glad my, self, didn't stop me from going. I had a good time! Time for the work bull shit again. Arg!!! <3

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 22:05:21 GMT

Happy 4th of july!! Im going to watch some fireworks. Riley is gonna be so scared! Hah..this will be his first time seeing them. My head hurts really bad but, Im still gonna go. <3

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 22:42:19 GMT

So tomorrow is the 4th and Im working. I need the money! I just found out that Emily is no longer moving to NC. Yay!! The reason she is staying sucks. Her boyfriend broke up with her. They were suppose to move in together. Boys suck, most of the time!! I found a new daycare for Riley. It's $100 instead of $130, what I pay for his daycare now. The place is more a school then it is a daycare. It's that much different in price but, it's good for now. Riley didn't want to leave..haha! That's a good sign. When he starts going there, he'll love it. Arg..prepaid phones SUCK!! P.s. I FELL ASLEEP AT WORK TODAY.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 02:18:56 GMT

So I really fucked up last night. I hung out with Brad, the one I use to be best friends w/ and stopped talking to. Well, we went hiking and then I went over to his house. Two of his friends came over and I didn't even speak to them. I felt sooo awkward!! Im sure they thought I was being rude. I just get weird around people I dont know. Brad knew that but, he still forced the meeting on me. I really want to make more friends and do stuff. It's just so hard on me to break my "shell". Ah...Im sure he regrets that effort. Ha..Damn I felt like such a loser. LOL...Who cares right? I am who I am! They weren't too important, cause im sure I would have talked more if they were. The girls just weren't the type of people I like to be around anyways..so WHO CARES!! Riley is throwing his stupid basketball in the hamper...annoying the shit out of me!! AHHHH......LOL!

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 00:22:32 GMT

Why is this bitch still coming back in the picture??!!!

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 02:25:58 GMT

"If you're walking down the right path and you're willing to keep walking, eventually you'll make progress. "

life starts at 1:00....

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 01:27:20 GMT

So life is sooo much better now! Chase is doing awesome. He is so happy now. Ever since the accident he has found a new love for life. It's like we just met again. LIfe is looking up and we are in a much happier place. I cant wait to see what's next. I'll take it one step at a time!!

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 23:57:22 GMT

The air is finally fixed!!! I spoke too soon.

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 20:51:42 GMT

Not having a cell phone is throwing me off. I dont know what is going on???!!!! I cant talk to my boyfriend so, I hope ever thing is okay with what he is going through. Arg...I've got to get a phone asap, like tomorrow. THERE IS NO AIR IN THE HOUSE. LET'S JUST SAY, I DONT SLEEP MUCH RIGHT NOW...........

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 20:24:44 GMT

1:44 pm...life is changing. You pack your bags @ 11:00 and leave @ 1:44. I said goodbye, I said I loved you. 30 days to change a life?! "im here now and always will be.."

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 02:39:43 GMT

Im sad but VERY thankful!!! Things will be so much better in time. I can't wait for the future. Im soo happy!! "so far from home you are my lighthouse. The stars that you see, will be looking right back at me." I LOVE YOU!!

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 22:55:07 GMT

So I no longer have a cell phone. My mom and I got them disconnected. Suncom was trying to say that we owed $1000 dollars!! They said that we went over our minutes. We both know that we didn't. We really don't use our phones enough. So we aren't paying the money. I'm just gonna buy my own phone. Chase is still in the hospital! He is doing good, I guess. His hip popped out of socket today. He had to pop it back in. Ouch..he is in ALOT of pain right now. I feel bad but, there isn't much for me to do. I'm so bored. I hate the weekend but, I don't want to go back to work tomorrow. Blah....I wish I had friends. Hahaha!!! My room is my only friend. Nah I got friends. I just don't ever do anything with them. That's my fault. I'm a social outcast for sure. NOTHING TO BE PROUD OF!! My sister has been in town since last friday. She left for a deaf camp yesterday. I get to watch her dog till she comes back. She'll be gone for a week!!! Yay..I don't like when my sister comes around. She always starts drama. Anyways...my back hurts so bad so, im gonna go lay down. Peace..<3

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 14:20:19 GMT

....home!! Im so glad to not be at work for a change. No shots for Riley afterall. It was only a check up. He did good though. No crying this time. I need to get an oil change bad. *Note to self*

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 02:50:48 GMT

Chase is doing good!! He is still in the hospital though. He has tried walking but, it's not recommened at this moment. He still has alot of pain in his pelvis and leg. I went to see him today. We watched semi pro...it wasn't that good. We knew it wouldn't be but, it was something to watch. I dont know when he will be able to leave the hospital but, im in no rush for him to leave. I know that he'll have to go back to his dad's and uncle's house and I dont want that. The enviroment there SUCKS!!! So not a good place to recover, that's forsure. NO WORK FOR ME TOMORROW!!! ~~I just love taking Riley to the doctor!!~~ OFF TO GET RILEY HIS SHOTS....BLAH!!

2yr. b-day party turned to shit......

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 23:09:36 GMT

So my son's birthday wasn't as happy as I though it would be. I knew if chase came over to ~~his mother's~~ house, there would be DRAMA!! Alot of stuff happened last night. I dont really want to go over all the details. All I can say is that my boyfriend got in a wreck. He ran into a phone pole. I got a call from one of his friends saying that they saw him. It was right near his moms' house so, I drove over to the scene. He was real messed up. They had to air lift him. I went to see him at the hospital. All he has is a fractured hip. He'll be in the hospital for a while. Im so glad he didn't die. Im sure with the way things are going in his life, he probly wouldn't have care. Anyways..im trying not to stress over it so, for now I pray. Peace- <3 Brandii

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 03:56:20 GMT

RILEY TURNS 2 YEARS OLD TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH..

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 01:37:55 GMT

Work was Soo boring. Tomorrow I have to train two people. Fun times...blah!! My sister is in town. My mom and her went to tennesse today. They come back tomorrow some time. YAY...home alone!!! *I love that movie*. I hung out with Brad and finally got to hang out with Emily. It was fun. I met one of Brad's friends. He was WAY out there. Brad was alot different when his friend came around. Emily and I felt uncomfortable so, she suggested going to her apartment. So she and I left Brad's house. I like Emily. She is very sweet. I dont know why we weren't close back in the day. See the deal with Emily was, she use to date Brad. I was best friends with Brad. She didn't like me around because when it was the three of us, me and brad kind-of did our own thing. We were sooo close, Emily felt like she didn't fit in too good with us. So she pretty much hated me I guess?! Well that's in the past and we have apolozied. We are suppose to hang out saturday. Riley is turning 2 on saturday so, I guess I will chill with Emily after I spend time with Riley. I stayed up till 3:30 am, talking to Brad. I really need to get some sleep so, till next time......peace! <3

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 23:36:25 GMT

Im so excited about what's to come!!!!!!!!!! I wish I could say what but, It's a secret.

I NEED SOMEONE TO PRAY LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 04:01:24 GMT

So today was a very long day. I went into work at 7:15 am and I just got home now at 11:39 pm. All I wanted to do is come home at 3:00 and chill. I didn't end up leaving work till 4:30. Aree didn't want to come in today. Tina didn't want to work with Sam so, she didn't come into work. So I had to stay at work till my boss could come in to work in her place. Arg....then chase needed a ride all over the world. BLAH!!!!! My back hurts and I am oh so tired. Alot of stuff happened last night or last night and afternoon. I once again played taxi till 12:00 am. I NEED SLEEP BADLY!!!!!!!!! I will be alone at work again tomorrow and the next day. Sucky....because I have to deal with custormers alone. Bored as shit at my slow ass job. No one to talk to, nothing to read, nothing to listen to but jazz on the radio. Well it's XM so, I guess I could listen to whatever I wanted to huh?! Since my new job is only 2 months old, we dont get that much business in the mornings. That good for me, if I had shit to look at or read or someone to chat it up with. I've been saying that someone should PRAY. Well I really mean it. Alot of bad things have been thrown at me and my boyfriend. Well thrown at him but, I have to deal with it too. I just dont ever know when he'll get a break. He feels like he'll never have happiness for too long, in this life. Chase will do good for a while and then something messes it all up. I just dont understand it. I sometimes like to believe that things happen for a reason. Some of things I can say, "okay this must mean something." Most things that have happened to him, I cant seem to think of a good enough reason why god would allow it to happen. If god exists then, he knows the shit chase has been through so why cause more shit...........??!! Ahh...Im way to stressed for this bull shit. I love chase soooo much. All I want is for him to finally be happy and not hate his life away. Anyways on a lighter note....I went to see my friends baby. She was born 5 weeks early. She is so adorable!! It was good seeing Ashlee again. I haven't spoken to her in like 3 years. I got back in touch with my ex best friend. It's been 3 years since I"ve spoken to him also. I hung out with him for a little bit. He wanted me to go hang out with him and some of his friends but, I declined. It was just so different being around him. He has changed alot. Plus + I didn't know his friends and I get pretty quite around people I dont know / just met. Maybe next time I will actually hang out with him. I really want to because I haven't got out much since the baby was born. All I've done is work, work, work!! I've got a mouth to feed..lol! *yawn* It's getting late...12:00 am. I gotta go to sleep. Off to work in the morning. Blah..same shit different day. The story of my life. <3

I think I'll cry all day.....

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 22:02:23 GMT

Today has been AWFUL. I thought it couldn't get worse but today it did!!!

too long.....oh so long!!

Sat, 31 May 2008 05:30:44 GMT

Im back!!! Wow alot has happened since I've posted on here. I started dating Chase. We've been together for about 3 1/2 years now. We had a baby boy named Riley. I really haven't done much but, work. I work like 40+ hours a week. I dont mind, I need the money!! So my boyfriends' mother is CRAZY. She woke up one morning and deceided she no longer wanted him to live in her house. So he was staying with me for a while. He now stays with his dad and uncle. I dont understand her. The past couple of months have been terrible. I feel so bad that she put him and me in that situation. I still live at home with my mother but, that's by choice. I get to save up my money till im ready like freddy to leave. LoL.....I've just been more stressed than ever lately. Daycare is ridiculous! I cant save anything dealing with them. I just need to find a church daycare. They are either free or pretty cheap, I've heard. So after 3 years, my ex best friend contacted me. *My horroscope told me that an ex lover or friend from the past would come back into my life* He and I stopped talking, well, I stopped talking to him. I was stupid...We hung out for a little bit the other day. It was weird seeing him again. He was so different. He got way more tattoos, he has way more friends, he travels, he got REALLY skinny! It didn't feel the same. I guess it's because we haven't talked or chilled in 3YEARS!! I dunno..I would love to hang out with him more, just to get back into the old days. We had some good times. We will see....let me just take it one day at a time!
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